It's not fair and I think you're really mean..

As we all know Christmas is over, done, fin. Kinda not my favorite holiday (I'm more of a New Years type of gal) but presents are always cool. So I had a list of little things I wanted to buy, or receive such as:

Vampire Weekend's new record- Contra

Paws for dance

Joy Division Tshirt

Some sort of sequined socks (I lol'd)

Miss Dior, never had the chance to smell it, but it seems quite fabulous

I've always dreamed about orange headphones so..

Lipstick Queen's Dark red, simply because Ben Nye Marilyn Red isn't cutting it anymore

My sister showed me these..lame, but they kinda take my breath away..shit

I just wanted pink or gold, THATS ALL

Toms

Memoirs of Marlon Brando<3

WOW, now I'm realizing how much I've asked for. Sad part is the list didn't end here. The even worse part is I actually got shit, nada, rein. LIFE GOES ON. (without these items -_-)

SHE'S LOST CONTROL

It’s Tuesday December 29th and I am realllllllllllly hoping today to be successful and entertaining. But lately I've been freaked out because I owe my friend $28 for buying me tickets to see Passion Pit, so stoked for that. Especially because I went to one of their shows and they sounded nothing but spectacular. OH but now on top of that crisis, I owe my best friend Cindy 20 bucks for buying me tickets to see The Cribs (who we have been dying to see). I guess I should stop borrowing money, right? Now i'm a shit out of luck with no bread in my pocket. I need to do something about that quick. Too bad no one will hire me & I have no idea why. I really believe I have no control of anything anymore. Everything just seems to be rolling down hill. Enough with the sappy shit though, WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED IN STATEN ISLAND? By that I’m referring to everyone now being a photographer, or looking to be photography major. I suppose I don’t have a problem with it but did I miss something? Fill me in. I’m serious. I will admit I rather have a Canon but currently I’m fine with my shitty digital camera.  Something’s still not right. & I’m sure next year we'll have a bunch of fashion designers, computer techs or bloggers ;)

Oh and I'm pumped to dance and just not give two shits!

Take me on cloud nine!

Its December 28th and Im sitting at my computer desk thinking or more so realizing Ive done nothing Im proud of this year. Last night I was listening to the podcast "Zen Is Stupid", when they expressed what they thought was "The Best Of '09" ,I then finally came to terms that I have nothing to show for. I dont think I did anything rather then complain about college. I could say, exceeding in school but thats not something I really want to "brag" about. Im hoping to do big things 2010, LMAO wow I really just said that. Never did I think I would be that lame, but hopefully I will grow some balls and do lots of shit this year. I can honestly wistfuly say the most fun I can remember having this year was hearing (not seeing) Phoenix play in Rumpsey Playfield. SO FUCKING PATHETIC, hand me a tissue. Though I am satisfied with how much I learned about myself. I like to think I cut tons of deadbeat people out of my life. I dont know whats to come but for two thousand ten : Big dreams, big hopes, big balls. NO TREPIDATION.

LETS GO! Currently Playing: Karen O and the Kids- Rumpus