What goes on?

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I finally have a job! I work with Borders, the bookstore. Today was my first day. it went well. I'm lying. It was horrible. The standing didn't bother me; the long hours didn't bother me. The cash register did. So did the fact that I really can't do something I don't enjoy doing it. I refuse. It really sucks to say this because "I'm not a quitter" but I'm quitting. Actually, I would prefer to say I'm done wasting my time with calendars. PEOPLE ACTUALLY BUY CALENDARS! For sixteen bucks! Who would have thunk it. I feel so stupid leaving this job after one day but I don't want to be that person who wastes their time doing something they don’t enjoy.


Being happy means a lot to me because that mood is normally hard to fully achieve. Fuck. I also have lots of school work. I don't think I can handle the two, or a least I can't handle the Day By Day Calendar booth and the way it makes me feel.


I'm ready for a job that makes me happy, such as my job in school. My job that consists of helping a man named Nathaniel Guy. He's great. I don't look at it as I job because he makes me laugh. I'm ready to find another job like that.

That being said quitting is going to be quite the task. I feel like a jackass. Hopefully they will understand, doubt it.


I'M FULLY OF SAPP!

"If you like what you just saw, if Dan put you in a state of awe..."

Here I am, sitting in from of my computer, aimlessly typing a bunch of nothing. This feels so much more productive then writing a paper on my stance on "Accent Reduction and intelligence". To be blunt, I couldn’t care less. I don’t think your accent tells me anything about you intelligence. Although, it does narrow down where you are possibly from...and that doesn't matter unless I actually care!


WHYAMINOTOUTSIDEENJOYINGTHISBEAUTIFULWEATHER?!

Anyway, I’ve been spending a majority of my time on YouTube. Fuck, yes. YOUTUBE. And no, I’m not talking about typing in “Baby with missing tooth laughing” but VLOGS (for those of you who don’t know, video blogging). I wish I could come up with a reason as to why I’m soooo…uh...fixated with other people’s opinion. People who I know nothing about or people I have never met, or never will meet.


I’ve been on a Dan Brown high. Who is Dan Brown you might ask? A boy, or man, I guess who is very politically aware. He has a cute girlfriend and he lives in Nebraska, I believe. That was my description...

For a more descriptive description (lol) Wikipedia says “Daniel Scott Zahller Brown (born May 15, 1990) is an American internet blogger on YouTube under the alias Pogobat.” YES. Also, he got the name Pogobat from POGO STICKS AND THE AQUABATS...whom I love (even though I sold my tickets to one of there shows to see "The Academy Is..." instead :|[big mistake]).


I prefer his “Dan Brown University” videos.  I wish I could be a YouTuber.


That’s all.




I’m not quite sure why I’m sharing this.

THIS IS WAR.

The two things in life that make me happy are music, and dancing. I’m sure most people my age can say that. It’s one thing we all have in common. Maybe not? It took me countless days and sleepless nights to realize that being a “dancer” isn’t realistic (not to say I will never persue it again).

It hurts.
It sucks.
It fucking sucks.


As I said before, I’m never been one to share my deep feelings over the internet, and so I’m not going to start now. BUT I what I will say, or more so post is this video. A video named Addiction. A piece danced by two contestants on my favorite show (that is going to be hard to watch next season due to my realizations) about how hard it is to get over an addiction when it’s always right there.


It truly brings tears to my eyes, its strong as fuck. The video quality isn’t that great (for some reason they don’t have the original danced piece), but watch it anyway. It’s astounding. I can sit here and think of a million words to describe this dance or I can post this so someone can possibly get something out of it.



Fuck. It’s too good. Great.




As for music being the biggest influence in my life, which again is a bunch of SAPP! No one says it better then the people in 30 Seconds to Mars’ video: Closer To The Edge


I can't embed it so I'm posting the link. Really watch it. I was in the crowd and they're soo incredible live. It's a fucking cult. No, I'm not kidding. They're good. My feelings on Jared Leto are still a bit on the fence but WATCH!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQHv-fhHq9Y&feature=related (4:47)

Wow, never thought I’d relate to Jared Leto in anyway. HAHA. But YES, again, it’s great. I love when I can actually relate to others. It’s kind of strange how someone can feel just the way you do. Obscure world we live in, eh?

Ships With Holes Will Sink

I could NOT be any more frustrated right now. I feel horrible and ignorant saying this but the young lady sitting beside me (possibly reading over my shoulder) has a horrible stench. I'm squirming as I write this. I don't enjoy saying this about someone but I have two hours to kill in this office. I'm so nauseous; it's actually making me angry. I would get up but I'm not THAT rude. I promise. Although I really really REALLY want too.


Other then that waiting for my number to be called is horrible, and lengthy. I kind of want to yell at one of these hags; actually they've been very nice to me...so far. So, I take that back. I’m stoked on getting a "free" iPAD. I better fucking get that #iPAD.


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